Where is Alexis?

It is with a heavy heart that I am beginning to prepare myself for what could be an "emotional miscarriage".  I contacted Angel Adoption last week to see if they had any updates on Alexis.  They said that they hadn't had contact with her but thought that the GA attorney had.  So today I contacted the GA attorney to see if she had an update and this is what she said:

I have not been able to meet with her yet.  I sent her a letter and an e-mail, but she has not responded to schedule our appointment. I also have tried her telephone number a few times and am not able to leave a message.  I offered to travel to her home so that she does not have to travel to Atlanta. Do you have any contact with Alexis?  If so, please encourage her to call me.

My heart fell when I read these words!  Per Alexis' request, we unfortunately do not have contact with her.  Therefore, the GA attorney has contacted Angel Adoption to see if they can make contact with Alexis.  

Why isn't Alexis responding?  She seemed to be so eager and wondered why the process at the beginning was taking so long. Alexis has been extra heavy on my heart and mind lately, enough to cause me to lose sleep so then I spent that time in prayer for her.  Is this why?  Is she struggling with making this decision now that she is 23 weeks along and feeling the precious life move inside of her body?  I don't really know what to think, but I do know that God is in control. I have also been praying lately that God would help Alexis to make the right decision and that whatever was best for the baby would happen?  Is God preparing me to say good-bye to this baby???!  Of course, humanly speaking, my mind is rushing to all kinds of places, so I am working on trying to trust and rest in Jesus' love for me and that He knows what is best.  

So would you please join us in praying for Alexis and that Angel Adoption will be able to make contact with her.  Even if it is to get the answer that we don't want, that Alexis has changed her mind?  We might not like the answer, but at least we would know.  Maybe there is a good reason that she has not been responding?  Only the Lord truly knows, so I am praying also that I will have a peaceful heart as I wait.

Maybe we will have more answers by the end of the week??  Whenever we learn more, I'll be sure to pass along the information!  Thanks for praying!

Finally!!

It has been over a week since we heard from our GA attorney saying that she had emailed our Kansas attorney asking for the documents he wanted Alexis to sign after birth.  We hadn't heard anything so I kinda figured no news in this case wasn't really good news, so this morning I bit the bullet and emailed the GA attorney to see if she had heard from our KS attorney yet.  She sent an email back, saying no!  Skeeter and I have been so discouraged with how our attorney is handling things, that this just kind of added to that frustration.  Our minds even had the thought of do we need to find another attorney who will work and get things done?  But in my mind, I kept hearing Jesus tell me that all of this timing was happening for a reason and that I needed to trust HIS timing rather than my own.

So with that said frustration, I emailed the GA attorney back and asked if there was anything further we needed to be doing.  No response. 

This evening, as I was checking email, I found this in our inbox from our GA attorney:

I am still in the office and have good news for you.  R.P. (changed for privacy) sent me the documents and I can now contact the birth mother to schedule an appointment. 

YES!!!  FINALLY!! 

There have been times, when I have wondered if Alexis even exists.  Is this all some sort of a game?  I think part of that is due to the fact that we have no contact with her per her wishes.  This is the total opposite of how it went with Adia's adoption.  Once we were matched we were on the phone 1-2 times a day with her birth mother (granted Adia was already born when we were matched).  I had even won an auction on ebay today for a brand new travel system for the baby as well as our new carrier cover that arrived in the mail today and that still didn't quite give me the great hope that this email offered to me that yes, Alexis does exist, I just need to trust!  Waiting is hard for me, so God is having me learn to lean on him as we WAIT until January. 

Our family is going through a lot of big changes right now and will continue until our new baby arrives.  Skeeter is taking EMT classes 3 nights a week and then when he is home, he is studying.  So our family time is very limited, but very treasured.  The kids are feeling that daddy is gone so much (classes end in December) but Jonathan is especially struggling.  Please pray that I will be the godly mother to know how to deal with him as we all work through this. 

We are also having some major vehicle issues, one of which almost caused the children and I to be in an accident last night.  It seems like since May (Anne's breaking of ankle), the Lord has really been putting us through the refiner's fire.  I pray we come out as gold as He desires!

Thank you for continuing to pray as we learn (which is a not so fun process sometimes) to WAIT on the Lord and His plan for our family!