Heartache

I write you in tears as the attorney called and said that after meeting with the birth mother that he feels it is highly unlikely that she will follow through with the adoption plan.  She has hidden her pregnancy from her parents thus far and with Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up, and having 2 other children, how will she be able to hide her pregnancy then as they get together?  If she told her parents about her adoption plan, she told the attorney that they would not be supportive of her decision.  She relies so heavily on them for her 2 current children I don't understand how she has been able to hide the pregnancy from them this far.  She has had the support of her cousin throughout this ordeal, which has helped keep her going. 

As a result, our profile has gone active again!  We are encouraged however, to keep the door open to this birth mother if in case in the end, she does follow through with the plan and place.  How am I to plan?  We may not know if we are going until the last minute!  And then we take the risk of her backing out after we get there (which could happen with any placement).  Angel Adoption recommended I call her on Friday and see how she responds.  Angel wants to not abandon her completely yet, but will definitely let her be making the moves.  We will not be giving any form of living expense to her until afterwards, in the event that this does all come together.  We are waiting to retain any attorney until we see how or if things will progress.  The Louisiana attorney will not be charging us for his time thus far, which is a huge blessing.  We will however be billed for the social worker's time.

Adia's birth mother was able to hide her entire pregnancy from her family, besides her sister, until Adia had been placed with us.  So I know that if its the Lord will it can still happen.  This is one of those cases, where if things fall into place, it is clearly the LORD working and that it will be meant to be.  Thank you for praying!  Hope all of these rambled thoughts made sense as right now, my mind is kinda going crazy!