Missing Expectant Mother Appeared

We had last written about the meeting that was planned with an expectant mother that had fallen through due to her not showing up.  We received an unexpected call this weekend from our social worker that this mother was wanting to meet with us and move forward.  So we planned a time to meet and prayed that this wouldn't be another dry run!

She was late to the meeting, but she showed up!  The first thing she said was that she was nervous and handed us a letter that she had written to us.  I would like to share this with you ~

I'm different from the normal.  I am a Christian who is frequently not able to understand why,

no matter how hard I try.  Nobody sees the person that I am.  Why would I keep a child 

when I can't take care of myself.  I'd rather give her to someone who can show her 

a better life than I can.  So thank you for wanting her.  I choose you to take her hand.  

Take care of her and love her and let her know I would have kept her but I can't.

Reading this in McDonald's with everyone around me was the only thing that saved me from bursting into tears!  This dear mother has had 4 other pregnancies and is not parenting any of them.  She has had quite a rough lifestyle and wants to do what is right, but she is so lonely and just wants someone to love her.  She was abandoned as a baby on the side of the road.  She was then placed into a foster home, and my understanding was that she was adopted.  When she turned 18, she desired to find out about her biological family, and as a result her adopted family "disowned" her as well.  Now she has no one!  She never did find her biological family.  What a lifestyle!  How sad that she had to grow up feeling rejected over and over and she is now searching for that love, however in all the wrong places.

We are choosing to proceed with gathering more information about this case.  Since we don't know who the birth father is, they will have to run an ad in the paper for 3 weeks after the baby is born to see if anyone will step up to the plate to parent.  She is due with a baby girl at the end of August. Our social worker is having surgery tomorrow so I don't know how the rest of this week will shape up, but will continue to trust in His plan. 

Meeting with her was quite interesting - - she isn't what most people would call "normal".  She is definitely not one with whom I would regularly connect with.  The words of a popular song keep going through my head - -

Show me how to love the unloveable.

Show me how to reach the unreachable.

Help me now to do the impossible.

Even though this song is speaking about forgiveness, these particular words are what my prayer is for how I want our relationship to be with this mother.  God is stretching us and taking us into an unknown and unfamiliar world!  Praying we can be a light for Him.  

Please continue praying for us!

Learning to trust....