Update From Friday's Post

Friday, I posted how we had been contacted by a social worker to see if we'd like to learn more about one of their birth families.  Once we would receive the info, and if we "approved" of the birth family we could send the social worker our portfolio, etc, to be shown to the birth family. 

Friday evening, with great excitement we saw that we had received the email that we had been waiting for - - to learn more details about this birth family.  Looking through the information, pieces started falling into place - - there hadn't been drugs, alcohol, smoking, etc during the pregnancy, the mother was receiving prenatal care, they were looking for a Christian family to love their child unconditionally, and wanted to receive pictures via the adoption agency every couple of months.  A perfect scenario in our minds as to what we have been looking for and waiting for in prospective birth parents.  It seems like these kind of birth parents are rare anymore - - so we were getting excited!  Then, the final piece of the puzzle that needed to fall into place, was how much the agency would charge us for this placement.  Unfortunately, it was DOUBLE the amount of what we have budgeted for our adoption plan.  Plus it did not cover any of the travel/lodging fees that would be required to go receive our child in Florida.

I wrestled with God for hours as to why these birth parents seemed so perfect, someone that we would actually like to pursue, but couldn't.  Why did He allow us to be presented with this situation, when it would be out of our reach?  I don't know the answer to this question, but emotionally and mentally, I kept trying to figure out a way to make this work.  Finally, I had to come to the realization, that this puzzle piece was just not going to fit into this puzzle. :(   This was by far, the most disappointing of all the cases we've been dealt so far.  But, in God's timing, we will just need to wait for God to bring ALL the puzzle pieces together for our next forever child.

So, tomorrow, I will contact the social worker and let her know that we will need to decline on this case.  Again, thank you for all of your continued prayers!